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May you live in interesting times
One of the hardest Chinese curses is «For you to live during times of changes». This statement could be discussed. If you are ready to meet these changes, they would give one more opportunities and actually they are necessary for the society life. But for any single one it might be hard, especially because it’s related with many psychological problems, thinking habits breakdown and so on. Those who have no these habits , the result of education and upbringing, could act more active and without turning back. So for the most of healthy people that’d be more-or-less ok anyway. Ideally the goal of any state is to protect people from the changes effects. But if both the state is corrupted and the person is weak, it becomes a real curse.
Russia has been suffering the changes process since the year of 1985 till nowadays. Several important steps were passed over. Since the state was badly corrupted, most of the traditionally passive, old and well-educated people (those who have the deepest thinking habits) suffered from them the most. Luckily most of them do have by now active young children, who are able to help them. So it was with our family.
My parents were born 1930 and 1937 correspondingly.
So by now they are too old for any changes. Besides, their education (thinking habits again!) does not let them act in ways that they consider wrong. Unfortunately, many events just «overrun» them. And despite that, they are recognized as good scientists that they were during their life./Papa at the computer/
Nevertheless, until they had no problems with their daughter’s health, it was endurable. I, their daughter Olga, had got a good education, and graduated from the biological faculty of the Moscow State University. Then I was getting a PhD degree in biology and while doing it I also was working for the World-Wide Fund of Nature in Moscow.
In 1999 I had brilliantly defended my PhD and flew away from Moscow to the Far East as a translator with a group of German but English-speaking ecotourists. Soon after my return I had the accident.
Recently I read a Danielle Steel’ novel the «Accident». The accident described in that book happened to two young girls. One had severe brain traumas, another had many broken bones. So I had both. Actually nobody expected me to survive. And certainly my rehabilitation had nothing common with the one described in the book. By now I am a collection of medical mistakes. These mistakes impede my treatment a lot. These mistakes result made the month I had spent in the Pforzheim clinic in Germany, organized by my friends, so hard that I think I’d get gray hairs from the pain.
But the worst thing is that of being bound to a wheelchair and thus not able to leave my flat. I can’t get any more money except for the state pension which is about 90USD in Russian Roubles. So despite their age my parents still have to work. Despite their salary being ridiculous small, it is more than the pension.
Even that short amount would be enough if not my treatment. I can’t help thinking that maybe it’d be better just let me die, while I was without conscious. That would for sure save much money and efforts.
The worst thing is that there was no opportunity to cure me here, in Russia. There are simply no technologies for it. Thank God that we possibly have an option of emigration to Israel according to the repatriation law. We are going to initiate the process.
I’m looking forward to doing it a lot. But it’d be hard anyway to integrate into new society and to get used to new thinking traditions. The situation is getting even harder because neither me (probably) nor my parents (certainly) will not be able to get job and to earn money. The last hope is the assistance from «others». If you are able to help anyhow, would you contact please me directly.
One comic character of famous Russian-Soviet satiric novel used to say: «you’d not provide me with life lessons, you’d better provide me with sponsorship, that’s what I am in need of». That was not the most attractive character, but now I have to repeat her words: I am badly in need of sponsorship.
Any visitor of my site can see my situation. It’s rather hard. To improve it somehow we are going to move to Israel - and thanks to Israel law we have this opportunity. The very moving process will take half a year at least. However right now I’m meeting another problem. In Russian Federation around Moscow (where I live) there is only one place to hospitalize a patient with my traumas to rehabilitate me. Even that place is not good enough, but it’s the only one while future Israel hospitals are still too far away. In the meanwhile to spend 2 months there (the average rehabilitation period) we would need about 5400 USD (in rubles of course). We have not such an amount of money. In the meanwhile all my surgeons tell that right now I need nothing but rehabilitation, nothing else could be done and that I would not be able to do it at home without a physician. That would be useless.
I was advised as well to apply to Lowenstein Rehabilitation center in Israel. It’s one of the best Israel health center. Unfortunately right now I’m not able to do it since I have no «new repatriant» status and our family is not able to cover these expenditures by ourselves. The very transfer of me to Israel would be too expensive.
However time is still running...
Well, sorry, but I am badly in need of sponsorship.
PS. $5400 was
calculated using rehabilitation clinic's charges:
$60 a day for myself and $30 a day for my mom, whom I will need to
accompany me as I am not an independent person.